Alternative title I can jump coaxial cables
Now for those of you that know me you will know that my IT skills are well lets just say less than perfect. For the last year or so I have been reflecting on my maths and IT skills or should I say lack of skills . Was it natural ability that lead to my brother’s best subject in school being physics and mine history. In my teenage years my brother saw the computer as a magical world that had to be investigated and explored I saw it as means by which I can type my essays without having to use liquid paper.
Now I am beginning to wonder if my aversion to maths and IT was to do with socialization and gender. In my school by year 11 maths was a subject for the boys. If you were a girl you better know what you are doing because the class wasn’t going to be slowed down by a stupid girl. Actually I think the teachers would have helped but frankly I felt it would expose my stupidity too much if I asked. So for my last year of Maths Year 11 I just let it all wash over me. Anyway I was always told that I was good at history and social science whilst my pitiful attempts at physics and algebra always generated comments such as ‘ We don’t understand why you are struggling you just need to be logical’. I felt that if it was just logic finding the answers should be easy. My inability to see the logic was a sign of a huge deficiency on my part. .
By 16 I protected my self from thoughts of inadequacy by deciding the computer and maths logic was stupid and I wanted nothing to do with it. In this way I was safe from usually men looking at me as if I had just put my undies on my head and stating over and over again I just don’t understand why you don’t get it.
Whilst saved from feelings of inadequacy the loss was mine and I have missed out . If only someone had told me that Yes maths is based on logic but it is a discipline that needs to be learnt and it is not easy. I was not stupid because the answers did not magically pop into my head.
So what has this got to do with my blog. Well this is me reclaiming my right to explore IT and use it in a way that hopefully will make an impact but is also fun.
Now again for those that know me at this point I am refusing to let my computer programming partner help. This is my exploration. Yes it is leading to some frustration at times and the rate of swearing in the household has increased in the last couple of days. But it is all mine so don’t blame poor David for any inadequacies in my blog.
For all of you that believe or have been told that something is beyond your capabilities this blog is for you. Please share the journey with me as I explore women, and their position in society, how we all can be leaders and some of the quirkier things that happen in this world.
have fun exploring